wew i think it crashed

a days a go i tried to add a tag board on my blogspot, but i think it didnt work... maybe i miss paste it on the template ^^ if someone know how, plz help me =)
(rite now i removed it from my blog)
and for some notes, the tag board is not for children who keeps using someone's parent names..jezz its bothering.... Please just use your original, nick, or YOUR parent's name

Its just me or ...

First i wanna say... "DAMN!" yeah realll damn, i really hate being lied.... not a joke lie here, i mean if you joking there's time you tell them the truth isnt it? but when you lie a real lie that you wont let them know the truth.... its the 4th time i had it..... i cant take it when people that i addressed as "friend" lie to me...hueh.... maybe its just me who have some weird thought, lemme describe it

I have an ideal as Trust, Family, Pride, and Equality this lie problem is violating my first ideal, coz i've thought that friends shoudnt lie to each other, why should lie? am i not worth to know the truth? what you want to achieve with i had a thought of those false truth?
At first i bein lied i think its only him/her that i misjudge as friend, but after all of this... its really.... bother me....am i have a wrong perception of friend? are friend dont deserve a truth after all? coz "hey its only a friend, not important"...jezz i really hate this feeeling right now =(

Family prob

uhhh i had a headache still i cant let it out of my mind recently, for some info i have a sis' and she have big badddddd attitude >_< really its real bad... AND a false perception of life itself...oh man this one is really weird, i dont even know anyone want to use her kind of sight, blamming everything to everyone, pity herself everyday, think as if she's the one who suffered most, never use an emphaty, never takin' advice from the elder (well i've heard the advice though, its a good simple advice yet she still resist to admit), damn i cant words it again...her thought is so painfull, i know she stressed out for some reason but it grew worse day by day, as a brother i tried to make her a better person, coz if she stay at that state no one ever liked her, surely she will be hated by some people....her life will definitely darker than night, and what i 'fraid most is that she'll consumed her soul

the problem is....she didn't like to change at all, its been 4 month i try to help her...but no fruit at all, even i feel sad ...why..why i dont have the power to convince her that she took the wrong way, (hey you'll never say her say yes to your advice or even agreeing, if she got her self cornered she'll say "stop talk about this";"i dont want you to say more";"im going to sleep dont bother me";sigh*), maybe we as a family fail to manage, giving too much freedom, (well my family -mom, my sis', garry, and me- indeed embrace freedom ways, but a responsible freedom plz!)

and as i predicted, my mom and my lil bro have give up to change her....they say "time will tell" arghh for me that aint gonna solve it...but until now i cant seem to see another way to do it... maybe i'll just leave it to "time"...but...i aint gonna abandon my family! i admit that my family are a little strict to rules, it aint a written rules, just a "dont do it plz, we hate it" if it was too much why the others can seems to survive it, so it was no problem at all i assume huehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...even write it on a blog still give me a headache...= (

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2005, oh yeah ^^

wah akhirnya gw isi juga ini blog ahahahha
gini2 pertama2 gw ucapkan terima kasih bagi yg menunggu untuk membaca blog gw ^^ heuheuheuhue
hmmm di taon baru ini gw berharap bisa menebus kesalahan gw di taon 2004 terutama kepada "...."
truzz di taon ini i want ye all to know, that im a new me ^_^ maybe some will find it interesting nor annoying indeed! 2004's really the big tide for me = )
thats all ah, bingung mao nulis paan lagi...^^

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